... Sinful Confessions

my reflection...

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 04:34:22 GMT

So although it’s only the beginning of December, I found myself sitting in my placement the other day reflecting on this past year. I couldn’t believe that this year was going to be over so soon. It honestly feels like January was just yesterday. I look back and think of all the things that have gone down this past year and I can only just sit here and be like “wow”. This year, as like most years, has had its ups and has had its downs. My life had many high points and low moments. I felt like writing this would have been a type of release therapy. Letting out everything one last time. So here is my reflection on this past year...

January, ha-ha I still remember kicking off the New Year at that great party Lisa Wong had at her place. January was laid back. My father’s big birthday party was one to remember, you can even ask Andrew and Andrea, I’m sure they have lots of jokes to tell from that night. I still remember all that shopping and money I spent on my unborn niece. The baby shower was so much fun and I just remember being so excited to soon meet my niece. February, that was one Spicy month. I will never forget seeing the Spice Girls return to the stage and seeing them twice when they came to Toronto. All that money spent, those million pictures and videos taken, and those memories I will never forget. By the end of February and through to the starting of March, of course I had to have some type of drama with a really good friend of mine. Although there was drama in my life, the morning of March 15th really did change my perspective on things. On March 15th, my beautiful niece Sierra was born. The new life changed the way I thought of things. All that drama didn’t matter anymore. And over time that drama disappeared and all was well again. April came around, and well, I don’t really remember much of April. I had a lot of time to myself, due to not finding a first year placement for school. I was off from school from like January to September. BIG VACATION. May was all about Melanie C. I got to go on Much on Demand while she was there (I yelled “I love you” and she said “I love you too”) and I then got to go see her live in concert (she touched me!), that day was really fun, the adventures shared that morning. Waiting in that line with them freaks was something special. The month of June, brought me to my Aunt June’s 50th birthday celebration. That was so much fun. June also took me to the Zoo and I can’t even wait to go back next year for the polar bears. Those same people who went to the Zoo with me also went to Casa Loma in July (and I’m still waiting for all of us to go to the ROM). This summer was full of activities and many trips to Starbucks. Well I’m still making those many trips to Shoppers Drug Mart and Starbucks today. The summer got even better when August rolled on in. GIRLICIOUS & NYC were all up in my August. Girlicious was so much fun, being hot gets you so much in life (i.e. Front of line, right by the stage, Andrew getting to ask them a question). They were amazing and so nice. I knew like all the lyrics, so I was just jamming, and Nichole noticed and fully talked to me! I also got to go on a vacation within my vacation. I got to go to New York City. That city is the best city in the world. I had the best time, got to see so many famous sites, was driven around in the hottest rides (limos every night), so much shopping, and I made some of the best memories with Andrea. I simply cannot wait to return to NCY in the future. This summer I had so many jokes with Laura. All our adventures and trip to IKEA! Only Laura & I can do stuff like that and make it so much fun! I always look forward to when she comes down!! September saw my return to school, after a very long time away from school, I was actually kind of excited to see familiar faces and get back on track. Of course there has been so many fun times with Lo Toya and Leo; who doesn’t love getting in some trouble for talking to much and joking around with our Subway subs. I still miss Sheanna so much, were not complete without her. And luckily by this time I had already secured my placement for the following semester. I got my very first and probably late credit card! And I have to admit bussing with Zohra & her sister again was too much jokes. Playing all those games, gossiping on the train and waiting for Zohra's friends who were always LATE! I also, as sad as this is, got my very first job in September. I managed to get a job at Loblaws in their photo lab. That job has been very interesting till this day and thanks the Lord for Shellyanne. She has probably heard all my horror stories and endless calls from me about quitting this job. I now get to enjoy work with Andrea, which is always fun whenever she and I are there together. Finally, by the end of September, I got a new cell phone; a BLACKBERRY CURVE! My like child, it's so addictive, but has been the best phone I have ever owned! October, well, this was a very interesting month. I turned nineteen and had a very big dinner with like 18 of my close friends. We went to Mr. Green Jeans in the Eatons Center downtown and I got to order my very first LEGAL drink. I had such an awesome time and can’t wait to do something big for next year. Maybe not another sleep over, even though we barely slept, I gottta admit, I truly love spending time with my family (Andrew, Andrea & Ashley!) I’ll never forget that night, as all that laughter is imbedded in my head. October also saw a lot of drama with this one bitch. That is a whole big time story in itself and I’m pretty sure, if you’ve been tagged you’ve heard and know all about it. People in society can be the biggest backstabbers in life and they’ll sell you out for money and are willing to loose all there friends. I am a forgiving person, but I will never forgive or forget what this person did to me. I believe that karma is true and she will have it coming to her in life eventually. Life goes on though and even through all that drama, it made my friendships with others so much stronger. And Ashley, Chantal and I got some pretty good pictures of each other on Thanksgiving Day. I’m still very thankful for what I have in life and I loved spending that day with those two people. Even the police couldn’t bring me down for that day with them. OH! And how could I forget the Halloween Party! That was so much fun. The smoke machine & endless drinks were amazing, despite falling down the stairs! November was a lot more toned down in comparison to October, but none of the less fun. Ashley and I had yet another successful photo shoot at Andrew’s house. November was also the month for bringing family closer. The last week of November was wonderful. I had family from the States come up to visit us and stay with us for a week. That was so much fun and was so hard to say goodbye, not knowing whenever I would see them again to have this much fun again. Every night was a party and I’ve made so many new inside jokes with my cousin Cody. Finally, I’ve reached December. Even though it’s only the beginning of December, I’m sure this month will be filled with more eventful things. Well one amazing this month brought back was Britney Spears. Her new CD is amazing and we got tickets to her tour, which will be seeing next year!!! SO EXCITED! Hoping to end this year and start the New Year with a bang. Hopefully no rehab for me in the next year, sorry Brendan and Andrew it just wont happen anytime soon. Placement is almost over, which is a good thing cause that can have enough ups and downs in itself. I’m looking forward to my holiday break, whatever that may bring.

I’m sure this is long enough and I’m sure I’ve left out so many things, but I really don’t want to be here for another year typing this out. It’s still so surprising to think of how much I’ve done this year. From going to New York City to all the small endless trips to Shoppers and Starbucks, I don’t forget any of that. I do not forget those special conversations I may have shared with each of you. I do not forget the jokes we may share and the many sleepovers we might of had. The trips we have made and the memories that will last forever. I have made many new friends and friends I still can’t wait to share new moments with. Even though I’ve made so many new friends this year, I have still lost a few. But as I once heard (from Madea), if someone wants to walk out of your life, then let them go! For those of you still in my life, I cannot wait to make new memories with you all, whether it is next year or even in 2010 and on. I treasure you all and cannot thank you all so much for making me the person that I am today. This has probably been the best year of my life. I also finally feel like I have that best friend in my life. You know who you are and I can cry writing this, cause you have no idea how much you mean to me and I am so grateful that you are in my life. You get me through everything in my life and you have no idea how much that means to me; can’t wait to get that apartment of ours soon! To Andrew & Andrea, what can I say? You guys know how to put a smile on my face every time I see you guys. You two bring so much joy into my life and I love that I’m related to you two. I feel like I’ve grow as a person and I just feel like I’m in a better place now, then I was a few years ago. I have my whole life to live and I can’t wait to see what the future holds. To all my old friends & new friends, you all really mean the world to me. I learned this year that family and friends will be there for you forever and for that I am very grateful. I love all of my family and friends and can only wish the best for them in life.

XoXo
Nicholas De Souza

long distance...

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 19:23:34 GMT

There’s only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time
And I’m running out of things to do to get you off my mind
All I have is this picture in a frame
that I hold close to see your face everyday

With you is where I’d rather be
but we’re stuck where we are
It’s so hard, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me
but we’re stuck where we are
it’s so hard, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me

It’s so hard, it’s so hard, where we are, where we are, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me
It’s so hard, it’s so hard, where we are, where we are, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days
While I’m away
You know right now I can’t be home
But I’m coming home soon
Coming home soon
All I have is this picture in a frame
that I hold close to see your face everyday

With you is where i’d rather be
but we’re stuck where we are
It’s so hard, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me
but we’re stuck where we are
It’s so hard, you’re so far

Can you hear me crying?
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying?
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying?
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Ooh woo whoa (oh-oh ah)

With you is where i’d rather be (where I’d rather be..) whoa
(but we’re stuck where we are) oh
(it’s so hard) So hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) me
(but we’re stuck where we are) Stuck where we are! So hard! So far
This long distance is killing me

It’s so hard, it’s so hard, where we are, where we are, you’re so far
This long distance is killing me
It’s so hard, it’s so hard, where we are, where we are, you’re so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far)
This long distance is killing me

There’s only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time

i live to tell...

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 01:07:11 GMT

i was three feet from the floor
gasping for air
trying to release my father's hands from my throat
i looked into his eyes
and wondered, if my feet would ever touch the floor again
have you ever been hit so hard, that is sends your body flying across the room?
we all fall to the floor at some point
its how you pick yourself up
thats the real challenge
isn't it?

i've always lived in my own world
trying to escape my troubles
but i've learned
that there's light even in the darkest places
i can't blame my father for anything
your can't rely on other people to make you happy
but i know deep down inside
that he loved me
...

...heard that & thought it was amazing.

the zoo...

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 04:22:03 GMT

it was a lot of fun going to the zoo. all the animals. the thunderstorm. the tornado. the ZOOmobile. the many pictures. AND i even got to pet some sting rays!! Yes HA how many people can say they've done that! lol can't wait to go again.... next summer, when the polar bears make there return.

Sat, 10 May 2008 09:06:33 GMT

how can one nightmare, bring back such awful memories to a person.
somethings just never go away and live with you forever.

i miss you

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 05:12:30 GMT

You'll be fine tomorrow
The sun will rise again
It's never easy to say goodbye
You know I'll always love you
You know I always will

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
My old friend (my old friend)
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
We've reached the end (we've reached the end)

I don't cry for sorrow, I cry with joy
The memories we've made can't be destroyed
You know I won't forget you
You know I never could
And when I say I loved you
You know I meant for good

You know I'll always love you
Goodbye

i will never forget

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 07:04:31 GMT

So yesterday I was on the bus with my friend Roxana and we were our way to the Science Center (which was was so much fun) when I get a phone call around 12:30pm from my brothers wife. She told me that her water broke and she would be having the baby soon.
Such exciting news!
So after my day at the Science Center, I rushed back home, ate and got ready as my and my family left to go to the hospital. We got to the hospital around 9pm and then it was a wait.
But everything was worth the wait.

At 1:07AM on March 15th, 2008
Weighing 7lbs6oz & 22 inches
Sierra Marie was BORN

A day I will never forget.
And whatever I've been going through and with whatever drama is going on in my life, doesn't matter to me anymore. I could care less. This new life means the world to me. She's someone I can love and someone I want to care for.
A precious life can change so much. And gives you a new perspective on life.
We didn't get back home until like 3 in the morning, and we'll be going back and forth to the hospital all weekend. But that's all I wanted to share.

...A Memory That Will Never Be Forgotten.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 04:13:24 GMT

i should post more often here
it actually use to be very therapeutic.

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 06:24:57 GMT

Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

<33 Daniella & Andrew.

LE'EEEEEEERRRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKKZZZZZZZ!!!

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 06:31:04 GMT

friends?
meh whatever.

...

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 04:59:53 GMT

i feel like i want to write out something here, just to vent about everything, but i cant. i don't know where or how to start.

definitions of trust:
have confidence or faith in.
reliance.
believing in the honesty and reliability of others.

turst is something i've lost with so many people.
i dont know who i can trust anymore.
nor do i know someone who will actually listen and help.
...i think im getting more and more use to being alone.
goodbye.

just a little ranting...

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 07:40:41 GMT

So I just wanted to type. I just wanted to clear my head and my thoughts. This always happens… everytime I have time to my self and my thoughts, it just puts me in a bad mood. I feel that I have a lot on my mind. I feel like this year was just a year that I went through a lot. It was a year I turned to other things to help cover up any pain I was going through. I was just on LiveJournal and I went back into my history on there, and it just saddens me that I wont get back some of those people, some of those days, some of those feelings and everything. Ugh my thoughts are just all over the place. I know I wont get back those memories, but just thinking of them makes me sad. I’ve had some happy moments this year, but the down & sad moments over power the happy ones. Its been one year since I met someone. Someone, who one year ago, I really liked. Someone who I now barley talk to. It was something that just didn’t work out. It was something that made me so happy, yet so hurt. I think the fact that I thought it was going so well, I just wanted it to work so badly. I wont get that back. Regarding this year I feel out of control. I feel lost. I feel that as I type this I don’t even know where this is going. I want to set some serious goals for the 2008 year. I want to take control of my life and make more positive decisions. I don’t even really know what else I want to say. I sit in bed as I type this wondering what to type next. I just wanted to type out something to help me clear my head. I’m enjoying college. I love my new friends. I still have issues in my personal life that I want to sort out, but I guess that’ll take some time. Well that’s the end of my little rant. Bye.

OMG!

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 15:02:50 GMT

GOING TO SEE THE SPICE GIRLS LIVE IN TORONTO!
YAY BITCHES!
SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 00:10:26 GMT

SO ITS BEEN SUCH AN AMAZING DAY!

I LOVE IT!
THE SPICE GIRLS ARE COMING TO TORONTO!

maybe...

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 19:07:31 GMT

Maybe - Kelly Clarkson
(My December)

I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might

Maybe, love maybe

SO MUCH WORK! (just a reminder for myself)

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 22:59:46 GMT

~~Thursday April 26:~~
~~- Food & Nutrition Test~~
~~- Drama Presentation~~

~~Friday April 27:~~
~~- Indaviduals & Families Phase 4~~

~~Tuesday May 1:~~
~~- COMFIRM COLLEGE ACCECPTANCES!!!~~
~~- English Assigments~~

~~Thursday May 3:~~
~~- Challenge & Change in Society ISU Essay~~

~~Firday May 4:~~
~~- Food & Nutrition ISU Part B~~

~~Wednesday May 9:~~
~~- Environmental In-Class Issue Analysis~~

~~Tuesday May 15:~~
~~- Indaviduals & Families Phase 5 + rest of ISU~~
~~- English "Leaving Home" Assignment~~

~~Friday May 18:~~
~~- General Science ISU Essay~~
~~- General Science ISU Presentation~~

~~Monday May 21:~~
~~- NO SCHOOL!!!~~

~~Tuesday May 22:~~
~~- Ennglish ISU Part A~~

~~Thursday May 24:~~
~~- Environmental Market-Place Presentation~~

~~Friday May 25:~~
~~- PROM!!!~~

~~Monday May 28:~~
~~- Indaviduals & Families Presentation~~

~~Tuesday May 29~~
~~-- Food & Nutrition ISU Presentation~~

~~Wednesday May 30:~~
~~- Challenge & Change in Society Seminar~~
~~- Environmental Term Test~~

~~Friday June 1:~~
~~- Grad Buffet! SKIT!~~
~~- ABC's Athletic Banquet~~

~~Monday June 4:~~
~~- Drama 3 Page Portfolio~~

~~Tuesday June 5:~~
~~- English ISU Part B~~

~~Friday June 8:~~
~~- Drama Acting Challenge~~
~~- Drama Group Performance~~

~~Tuesday June 12:~~
~~- Drama Indavidual Performance~~

~~Wednesdat June 13:~~
~~- English ISU Part C~~

Tuesday June 19:
- General Science EXAM!

DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my march break run down...

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 03:57:10 GMT

Hey...
...wow i haven't written on here in a while. amazing how facebook can just consume someone.
anyways this years march break will be pretty much over soon, so i thought i'd do a little march break run down.
Surprisingly i didn't even do that much. my weekends are usually amazing, but the hoildays suck lol except for like Christmas cause the gifts make up for that. so here's my little march break break-down:

March 10th...Friday...
- party downtown.
- vodka & redbull was interesting.

March 11th...Saturday...
- another party downtown.
- reached my cousin ashely's house.
- bedtime rave music haha lol shower rave music.

March 12th...Sunday....
- d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s. breakfast.
- chilled at ashley's house.
- cartwheels and the indian thriller.
- tim hortons cream cheese bagle.

March 13th...Monday...
- sleepover with me and ashley at my house.
- buying stupidness at the dollar store.
- SAW III (scary shit).
- Happy Birthday Linda & Kristina <3

March 14th...Tuesday...
- Happy Birthday Richie <3
- stayed home.

March 15th...Wednesday...
- stayed home for most of the day.
- richie & nicole came over.
- went to Pickering Town Center at night.
- got hair cut there.

March 16th...Thursday...
- i thought this would of been the best day, turned out to almost be like the worst.
- went to get my Pass-Port picture taken, came out iite.
- went to Markville Mall. saw something in American Egal that i really wanted, parents wouldnt get it for me.
- so pissed off after (much more to the story so dont think i'm like a little bitch cause i didnt get what i wanted lol).
- went to P.Mall to get two new PS2 games.
- played the games.
- my cousin ashley came back over to my house to play them with me.
- buessed down to my cousins house downtown.
- sleepover there.
- finished my hours lol thanks to my aunt <3.
- FINALLY SAW ME AND MY COUSIN ANDREW IN THE MOVIE TAKE THE LEAD!!!!!!! THIS MADE MY DAY, TO SEE US ON TV IN A MOVIE! =D
- bedtime: 5:00AM

March 17th...Friday...
- chilled day at my cousins house.
- little party.
- tattoo talks.
- POSSIBLY GETTING A "RECORD DEAL". My cousin Ashley's bf is a up-and-coming music producer and has already been working on tacks with people.
- taken to mcdonalds drive thu.
- DIDN'T FALL ASLEEP TIL 5 IN THE MORNING!!!!

March 18th...Saturday...
- chilled at home.
- went to Pho's with Roxana, Linda, Rebecca & two of their co-workers.
- was fun and very filling.
- After Phos Photoshoot with Roxana @ my place.
- rented The Return & The Grudge 2; Sarah Michelle Geller movie night.
- watched The Return; was an interesting/ok movie.
- my cousin and aunt came and sleptover.

March 19th...Sunday...
- hung out with my little sister & my cousin Shane.
- grilled cheese.
- singing out loud!
- just finished watching The Grudge 2; it was kinda confusing.
- now i'm chilling on the computer, talking to Andrew on the phone.
- new soca 2007 songs from Andrew haha lol.
- still have to study for my Food & Nutrition Carbs. Test; which is tomorrow.

So it's back to school tomorrow.
Spare first period - thank god.

And it's GoodBye to March Break!

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 03:38:17 GMT

"You just have to go after what you want and if it doesn’t want you back then so be it, it doesn’t deserve you anyways."
- Nicole Richie.

best quote. i love it.

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 03:46:23 GMT

and the oc is done.
such an amazing show from start to finish.
and this esp. was a perfect way to end it all.
was a very good closure for the show.
i have the first three seasons on dvd and will spend all the $80 for the last one.
so going to miss this show =(

<3 the oc.
bye...

...all apart of my flawed design.

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 01:44:33 GMT

Flawed Design (Remix) - Stabilo

When I was a young boy
I was honest and I had more self-control
If I was tempted I would run
Then, when I got older
I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted
When I wanted it
- And I wanted it
Now, I'm having trouble differentiating
Between what I want
And what I need
To make me happy
So instead of thinking I just act
Before I have the chance to contemplate the
Consequences of action

Bridge:
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

Chorus:
'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is
All a part of my
flawed design

And ever since I figured out
That I could control other people
I've had trouble sleeping
With both eyes closed
And if I asked permission
If I make sure it's ok
I promise I won't slip up this time
You can trust me
But never take advice from someone
Who just admitted to being devious
Who just confessed to treason
And I would also never ask a question
That I cannot ask myself
For it might
Dirty up your conscience

Chorus:
'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is
All a part of my –

Bridge:
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

Chorus:
'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is
All a part of my -
'Cuz I lie
And if I could control it
Maybe I could leave it all behind
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is all a part of my
Flawed design

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 22:59:33 GMT

ok so i'm so HAPPY right now, because ......

1) I got a new baby kitten. white/grey with bright blue eyes. and i've named it Sugar Puss =)

&

2) I got ACCEPTED to both Social Working & Early Childhood Education at Centennal!!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!! :D

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 03:12:08 GMT

FUCK ENVIRONMENTAL!!!

lie to me - george

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 04:07:01 GMT

"Lie To Me"

[Verse 1]
Why didn't i listen to my heart
When she had me guessin' from the start
more and more i wonder
why do i still want her
after all the love i gave to you
all this pain i'm in because of you

[Chorus]
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
Where am i supposed to go
when it's dark outside
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
lie to me [6X]
one last time

[Verse 2]
Still had those letters from last fall
and everytime the phone rings
wish it was your call
more and more i wonder
why do i still want her
after all the love i gave to you
all this pain and all beacuse of you

[Chorus]
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
Where am i supposed to go
when it's dark outside
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
lie to me [6X]
one last time

[Bridge]
Why did you have to hurt (to hurt)
Loved you for all your lies (your lies)
one thing i know is true
ill never stop
lovin' you
So tell me

[Chorus]
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
Where am i supposed to go
when it's dark outside
What am i supposed to do
when it's all a lie
won't you lie to me lie to me baby
lie to me lie to me baby
won't you lie to me baby
one last time

...now your back.

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 21:33:38 GMT

Circle by Marques Houston

[Chorus]-
If you love something, let it go,
And if it comes back then that’s how you know.
I got to the stop light then I made four rights.
Now I’m back where I started,
And you’re back in my life.
the further that i go the closer i get back to you?
I say I moved on,
Til’ I’m reminded of you.
Can somebody help me?
To help me get out of this circle (out of this circle).

happy holidays...

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 04:51:08 GMT

xoxo Merry Christmas! xoxo

(don't you just love my Christmas Tree^^^^)

Hope everyone is enjoying their break. No homework for two full weeks =)
thank god. lol so far my break has been a blast.
friday only went to school to like first period, which is spare, to hang out with Zohra
me, zohra & kaya sent like the whole day in Starbucks, had some really good and much needed chats.
i love you guys - must do it again.
watched this years Talent Show, wasn't as good as past shows and wasn't as bad as i expected it to be.
the teachers were the best, they worked it out good.
Linda came over again lol chilled at my house, then we both bussed downtown.
lol i have her cute unbrealla! lol and the beef paties at Wareden St. = DELICIOUS!
thanks Linda, good times.
hangout/shopping downtown with my aunt & cousins.
got Andrea's gift <3 lol
almost 1.5 hours in Future Shop!!!!
spending almost 1000 that night.
Andrew almost falling on the ice lol so hott lol
Saturday and Today were really fun.
sleep over JAM! with the cousins Andrew & Ashley.
& Chad haha lol :P
all that food and junk and drama lol and farts lol haha =)
stayed up til past 6 in the morning.
barley any sleep.
pizza pizza for breakfast.
hoping my dad will trade cell phones with me.
they went home and i bumed around the home.
took a walk to Starbucks, picked up my drink and came back home.
no ones home on this Christmas Eve, i sit here listening to Lindsay Lohan - A Little More Personal (RAW) <3
no matter what people may say. this cd is amazing. all twelve tracks on my iTunes Top 25 Most Played.

Alone.
i still wonder what really went wrong, cause i miss you.
even though it's been like a month and a half, your neveer gonna leave my mind.
w.e.

But anyways, Merry Christmas to everyone, 2006 is coming to an end.
just like the End Of Summer Posts, i'm sure I'll have an End Of 2006 Post.
What a Year!!!!

wishing you all the best, and hoping to see some of you over the break.
xoxo
love.peace.&.sex.
GodBless! =]

- Nicholas De Souza -